Monday, October 15, 2007

Abandonment

One of our deepest needs as humans is to belong. God created in us a desire for relationships, but unfortunately in our human form, we tend to mess things up. We don't carry out our friendships well or we let people down, or we get let down. Any way you look at it, humans in a relationship will inevitably hurt one another at some point. The heart may not be to hurt anyone, but where the spirit is willing, so often the flesh is weak. As a result of these hurts, over time we often build up a fear of rejection or abandonment that hits us to our very core. I know that I struggle very deeply with these fears. I don't have very many people inside the inner sanctum of my heart in an effort to keep me from getting wounded there, but it still happens.

Something occurred to me this morning though, and I'm not quite through processing it, but the key point is.... how often does my rejection and abandonment hurt my Heavenly Father? When I'm wounded and feeling alone or vulnerable, I withdraw. I don't spend time with Him. In fact, I avoid Him. How often has He been hurt because He wants to be there for me but I've shut the door and held Him out? How often is my hurt prolonged by my own behavior? Do I think I'm any different than Adam and Eve trying to hide their nakedness? He's the Master and Creator of the universe. He knit me together in my mother's womb and He even knows the number of hairs on my head. HE KNOWS MY HEART. There isn't anyone in the world, no matter how close they are to you, that can know you as intimately as your Father in Heaven. He wants to love you. He wants to love me. He wants to let you know that He values you and He wants to spend time with you. He longs to hear my voice and yours. There is nothing too big or too small or too boring for Him. He is the alpha and omega, the beginning and the end. Why are we holding onto these things when He's sitting there just waiting for us to give it to Him? Why do we treat Him the way we hate to be treated?

3 comments:

Bobbi-Jo said...

Wow - I can't believe I just came across your blog on the very day I needed this message! I've been having some trials of faith lately and just this morning I felt such a distance between me and my Heavenly Father. I know that if there is distance, I am the one who moved. I need to make the effort to strengthen that relationship. Thanks for the gentle reminder!

Erin said...

Hey bobbi-jo. Are you the awesome photographer that took Frieso and Juliette's pics? I was actually in your ward a million years ago.

Anyway, thanks for taking the time to read my blog. Its nice to know that it's touched someone.

Ally Brown said...

While reading this blog it reminded me of the several times written in 2 Nephi Chapters 19&20:

For all this his anger is not turned away, but his hand is stretched out still.

I'm not saying that you have angered our Heavenly Father by not turning to Him constantly. He and the Lord understand the feeling of turning away when hurt.

But what I think is so awesome about that scripture, other than it written several times, as if to really get the point across; is that even when the Lord is angry with you, He still reaches out for you and never gives up on you.

Tis The Season For My Favorite Christmas Albums

Martina McBride – White Christmas Let it Snow | Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas | Silver Bells | Hark! The Herald Angels ...