Friday, September 19, 2008

Virtual Rooftops

Driving to work today, the U2 song, “I Still Haven’t Found What I Am Looking For” came on the radio and I found myself singing along at the top of my lungs. {the novelty of listening to music during my morning drive still hasn’t worn off} U2 songs have a way of inspiring such passion with their lyrics and music, don’t they? Most of their songs are about topics that matter, topics that reach people and their strong emotions about life, civilization and the human condition.

Riding along, I couldn’t help singing out loud like a raving lunatic because those were lyrics and sentiments I wanted to shout out. Loudly. Then I thought of that one video they made where they set up a impromptu concert on an L.A. rooftop. Could you blame them for wanting to express themselves, sing those powerful lyrics from a rooftop? If I were a little more ballsy I may be convinced to do that myself. In many ways I see this blog as my virtual rooftop where I get a chance to scream out to the masses the thoughts and emotions teeming inside me.

HEY INTERNET!

I STILL DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M LOOKING FOR!

I STILL FEEL LOST MOST OF THE TIME!

STILL AM NOT SURE WHO I AM!

Certainly, I could write all this stuff down in a personal journal, releasing my thoughts out into the universe and creating a physical presence where they can reside, rather than staying bottled up inside me. But just getting them out isn’t the main purpose. As cathartic as it might be, it isn’t comforting in the end. Yet shouting out from my virtual rooftop is helpful because it triggers the echoes of other voices.

“I hear you”

“I understand”

“Me too”

“I know”

Ahhh, the echoes! For me, it isn’t about just getting it out. I can live with the feeling that I am confused, insecure, unsure or lost. What I can’t live with is the feeling that I am all alone in being confused, insecure, unsure and lost!

2 comments:

Michelle said...

How did you change your background? I am new to this whole blogging thing and have no idea how to do anything! Help me out,please!

SongbirdMama said...

My friend, Allie actually makes them. She's really good. I'll give you the link to her backgrounds blog. She gives instructions and stuff on there and has a lot of great backgrounds to choose from.

http://www.alliebrownslayouts.blogspot.com/